the unconscious death urge

The unconscious death urge states that everything around us in the world is a reminder of our death, that everything contains death, and as a consequence we ‘unconsciously’ invite death in. One can invite death by living on the edge, dicing with death, but also by trying to avoid it. When we manifest an illness, or indeed any kind of trouble, our death urge can get activated. The same when someone or something around you dies. Even your computer crashing or the video breaking down can be a manifestation of the death urge. This happened to me just last year when practically everything in the house stopped working. I had to take notice. I knew it was telling me I needed to make new changes. It was like my old life was dying and a new one was calling me to birth it. Just take stock if a lot of things are 'dying' around you.

Death is inextricably linked with birth, since birth can be said to be the first death. Here ends the idyllic life in the womb, the Eden state. An unconscious reaction to the death urge often shows in acts of defiance. We can act this out quite unconsciously by turning up late for appointments, breaking things at work if we’re bored, ring in sick, etc. It’s like ‘why don’t you kill me’ type. Defiance brings us back to helplessness and victim consciousness.

The unconscious death urge can also show up in appetite. Our eating habits speak volumes about us. Eating disorders may have their roots in the death urge. For example, a mother, following good medical advice, may feed her child on schedule or on demand. However, the child may feel continuously hungry and think there’s a famine. The notion of food and scarcity becomes locked in. Please note I’m not reducing all eating disorders to this single cause. But it may be a factor. This can show itself in other guises later on in adult life, for example, in business doing poorly, ‘people won’t feed me’. Or it can be in the area of love or relationships. Underneath it is the lie that there is not enough.

It’s important to remember that death doesn’t actually exist, not as we see it (this is also the seventh remembrance in Home With God, the last book in the Conversations with God series by Neale Donald Walsh, (Hodder and Stoughton, 2006). A really important book on death which I highly recommend reading. So when we’re talking about death we’re really talking about transition to a new state, birth again.

Rebirthing theory considers it important to unravel our birth script and personal lie. The unconscious death urge is inextricably linked to both. It’s important to take note of your family history around death. People have a tendency to die at the same age as one of their parents, and often from the same ailment. You might think this is because it’s “in the genes”, but actually it’s the thought that kills you! So it’s important that we clear up on our parents and not unconsciously imitate them. This starts with forgiving them.

However always remember that it’s your reaction to things that creates your reality, not the thing itself, and yes, this applies to the death urge as much as anything else. Therefore, by knowing my birth script this can help me understand myself, my patterns, and so on. But it can, in turn, create them. I can look at my birth script, and think, I’m an X birth type, therefore I must have X characteristics. And if I look hard enough I can probably find them.

Now don’t dismiss it either. It’s like knowing if there’s a history of some disease in your family. This is of course useful information to have, but if all you do is worry and think you’re going to get that ailment because it runs in the family then it’s actually counter- productive. Your birth script is merely a map. It can tell you useful things but it’s not you.

Do not forget, coming from the Origin, you are the creative force in your life. So this means you also chose your birth. And it also means your birth contains all the information you need as to your possible reason for reincarnating at this particular time and as the person you are now.

Your birth is you, it's something that’s still going on at this moment. Your birth script is simply the story of that.

Now the death urge is not so much about your actual death as it is about the ‘idea of death’. Your own passing from the place you’re in now, whatever form it takes, should be of no consequence to you. Yet that’s the one thing most people worry about, and spend all their time trying to avoid (while at the same time inviting). In that way they make death real. This, in my mind, is the culmination of the birth script and the personal lie. Death conquers he who believes in it. But death is only an idea. Know that you create everything in your awareness and that death is an extension of your personal lie, put there by the illusory nature of things, but not something that is real in itself.

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